Monday, July 27, 2009

Holding my babies close

A friend had their second child this weekend. We visited the hospital yesterday morning and met the new baby. The new mommy looks amazing! I can only hope to look so good the day after..... and I have it "easy" - no pushing here. Now, that 6+" incision... that is another story.

Anyway, holding that yummy newborn - it made me long to hold SweetBabyBoo. I can hardly wait to meet him!! I can hardly wait to see which of his brothers he will look like. I wonder if he will have Mason's blue eyes or Miles' brown eyes. Maybe he'll have mommy's green eyes. Will he have mommy and Miles' curly hair or daddy and Mason's straight thick hair? Will he be born with hair or bald like both boys were.? Will he weigh more (please, God, NO!!!!) or less than the boys (Mason was 8lb 4 oz at 11 days early and Miles was 7lb 10 oz right on time)? I can't wait to find out!! I thought that with the third pregnancy the feelings of anticipation would be lessened. They are not though. They are stronger than ever. Maybe because I am more confident in my mommy-hood and skills. Maybe because I know that this is most likely the last of our children I will ever feel kicking me in the ribs. (We have no more plans, but God seems to have a funny sense of humor lately.) Maybe because I now realize what a gift children are and I am so thankful to be blessed with 3 healthy, beautiful, amazing, perfect boys.

But, regardless of what he looks like, I just pray that Max is healthy. I cannot imagine what it would feel like to lose one of my precious boys. I have mentioned Baby Stellan before on the blog. He has a problem with his heart. I can't explain it, but today he is very, very sick. The problem was found when he was in his mommy's tummy and he was never expected to be born alive. He is 9 months old now but fighting hard. Please, please say prayer for this family. I believe in miracles and so does this family.

So thankful that our boys are healthy and curled up on the couch with me right now. They are eating bananas and watching a cartoon. Mason intermitently asks to go outside and play in the rain. Today? I just might let them.