Thursday, September 11, 2008


This morning, Steven Curtis Chapman was on the The Early Show and talked about his daughter, Maria, that was killed in the family's driveway in May, just after she turned 5 years old. He wrote the song "Cinderella" just a while before then for his 4 girls, 3 of which are adopted. His story and the family's testimony and hope in Christ is an amazing example for every Christian out there.
He was also interviewed by Dr. James Dobson and it aired in August. I can't imagine losing a child. I would like to think that my faith would remain strong, but I think that the reality would be that I would be so angry with God. I know that as I processed through Miles' seizure and the reflux problems and months of ear infections, I was angry with God that he allowed him to be sick and didn't heal him immediately. I was angry as I held Miles in the middle of the night and listened to him cry out in pain for hours. He was so little to have such discomfort. I know that things could have been much, much worse, but I also knew that they could be much, much better. It was a long first year for Miles. And for our whole family. But, we still have Miles and we get to enjoy his smiles and his silliness. We get to watch him grow and learn and bring joy to our lives every day. The Chapmans don't get to see their Maria again. At least not until heaven. I have had to ask for forgiveness for my anger and my questions. I thank God for both of my beautiful children. I may never have my own "Cinderella" and I am coming to terms with that. But, I do have two amazing blessings chosen for me and Eric by God himself. That's enough for me.
Psa 127:3 (The Message)
Don't you see that children are God's best gift?
the fruit of the womb his generous legacy?