Still here!

Yes, I am still here. It has been almost 2 weeks since I have blogged and it has been a VERY full two weeks.

12/16 - K&E's 8th wedding anniversary

12/17 - Miles' last day of school for 3 weeks and Mason's class Christmas party (which I was in charge of.... it went very well and the kids seemed to enjoy themselves)

12/18 - Found out E made Partner at his firm. Dinner out that night to celebrate!!!

12/19 - 12/20 - Night away in Ft. Worth to celebrate anniversary and partnership (Boys at Nana and Papa's). We stayed in a B&B downtown, went to 4 Day weekend improv club and a late dinner at Lonesome Dove (AMAZING food, by the way!!)

12/21- 23 - Boys and I prepared for Christmas. Wrapped all the gifts. Played with friends.

12/24 - Spent day with K's family. Christmas Eve service at Watermark - best Christmas Eve service I have ever attended! Made cookies for Santa, had dinner together, opened presents, even heard Santa and his sleigh bells outside the window at Nana and Papa's house.

12/25-26 - Mason found his Santa gifts before the rest of us got up. He then hid under the dining room table and ate one of the cookies that Santa left behind..... sneaky kid! We opened Santa's gifts and gifts from Mommy and Daddy. Spent the rest of the day with E's family and stayed the night to spend a little extra time with his sister, bro-in-law and niece.

12/27 - Started taking down the Christmas decorations. Mason was really unhappy about this and kept telling me it was still Christmas. He also took a bunch of ornaments out of the boxes (that I had already put away) and put them back on the tree. UGH!!! Double work for Mommy. I also went through their toys and put away anything that was too young, not played with or torn up. It was nice to have the cleansing of toys.

12/28 - Church this morning (more on that later -- really good points were made). I visited some friends at the hospital that had a baby yesterday (after only 6 hours of labor -- so not fair!!!). She is precious and so tiny (6lb 9 oz)! I had to leave because I could literally feel my uterus doing flips and felt the pull of my heart wanting to experience that new life inside my tummy again..... sigh. Just not sure if that is going to happen again though. How do you know when your family is complete? How do you know if another is more than you can handle? E feels that we are complete, but I just don't know yet. Shouldn't I know already and shouldn't we feel the same? I will be 33 in a few weeks. So, we don't have a ton of time left to figure this out. Sigh. I just don't know.

Sorry to end on that sad note. I have been struggling a lot lately with be satisfied with our family, where we are (not perfect but striving to be loving and good examples for our boys), and what we are not. Christmas was hard seeing all of the girly presents going by and all the girly dresses for our nieces. I love our family how it looks right now and can't imagine it any other way, but my heart still longs for a daughter. Sigh.
E took Miles to the park. Mason lost that privilege because of some bad behavior this afternoon. So, he and I are hanging out at home. Maybe we'll work on putting up the rest of the Christmas decorations.