reflux

I hesitated to write about this. I didn't want to "jinx" anything or speak too soon. For about the last 3-4 months, Miles stopped refluxing. We took him off his meds. Life was great (or at least spit-up free)!!!
Until last week.
Miles started spitting up.
Just a little.
I thought it was odd, but didn't really think much about it. Until last weekend hit. What I thought was a possible tummy bus is actually Miles' reflux back. In full force. As in losing full meals or bottles. (Yes, he still gets a bottle of milk at bedtime. This very well might be our last child, he enjoys his bottle, and I enjoy the time spent with him cuddling. I may never get this again. So, for now, the bottle stays. But, I digress........) It is not every feeding. It is not always a full feeding that he loses. It depends. It is inconsistent. It is reflux, not a tummy bug.
I am totally and completely sad. I am hoping that it is only from teething. Teething can cause a reflux flare-up. Or so I am told. He only has 4 teeth at almost 14 months old, so clearly we are due for some serious teething very soon. Just hoping it is a short phase. So, we go back on prevacid and I get to carry burp cloths and a change of clothes for both of us everywhere we go. I will again be stressing out when feeding him at a restaurant or at someone else's house of the mess that may be coming. I am sad to the point of tears. Sad for Miles that he has to endure this. Again. Sad for me (selfishly) that I am stressed about it again and for all the messes I see in our future. Just sad....